fast reading, har chi be zehnet miat mese kurhayi ke cheshmashun bastast dastashuno donbale jaye chiza takun midan

peida kardane ye level ehsase mohkamke negah midari gusheye zehnetvali alan taghyir nemikone,farghesh ba ekhtesas nadadanine ke age midunesty chi bud mirafty donbalesh..ghaede nayar chikar mituni bokoni, boro balatar, bebin chi kar MItuni bokoniavaz shodane systeme fekri va talash baraye tose'eye jadide.ghabli ye zaat hazf mishod
inja ye chizi lazeme unam erja be gzoashtast.
bebin mituni in sardargomi ro towsif koni...?modam az ye attractor be ye attractore dige chang mizanebia payinenghadr kalame ha ro riz kon , ke beshe chizaye digeye system ro ham besh ebahash towsif kard,na inke enghadr be hame chiz vabaste beshe va na enghad ke taghyiresh be khatere asare hameye chizaye dige gom besheba in mituni shuru koni?ye hesi darim ke vijegish yekam jelotar miat... az ye attractor dast miavizim .. tuye sharayete ke "ta'adole ideal"(nazaret rajebe in vaje va riz kardanesh chie?) kheili payineye chizi in vasat kam mishe ye khala, va tuye tamassok jostan ye chize dige bala mire.. vijegie in sardargomi ine ke un bala raftehe dobare payin miat.ru in asl raftam ke javabe ino zud azet mikham

in faghat ye tamrine, ye dast garmi , vas dorost khundan o javab dadan
nabayad ruye chizayi ke dorost nemishnasam esm bezaram, ghablan ha migoftam low latent
inhibition
alan tu barrasie in mored saro kare ma ba yeneveshtast farzan ke in ettefagha ya barash oftade ya mitunest biofte
chand sa'at bad , dobare khuundanesh be ye neveshteye adi tabdil mishe(baba nagoftam injurie male to)ina har kodom nime harfayiayn ke bayad did be koja miresan
1: tasavore ahmaghane budan ro midahad chun entezare didane chizi bishtar dar hamchun zaman va makani bud
ma un avakehr miresim be chi
hadafe entekhabie ma baraye shurue neveshteye to: bar rasie proceye low latent inhibition va shekaste shodane telesmeshe chizhayi ke ba un talash tasvirhaye ma dide shod,bad male shod
rewshte, reshte reshte:
raftar fard pas az moshahedeye yek asar, (sefate asar? sefate negah?)
dar peye...
dar feshar
towsife amadegi:1 -resist budan, 2tahdid,3-ezterab,4- ekhtesase zamani
etc, antithese ha
towsif ya parametr haye hayatie lazemtari?,
che taghyiri dar fard dide mishe ta mogheye male didan
in ashoftegi haro mishe hich juri jahat dad?
approache male didan khodesh anti thesesho nagoftim
nahveye tamarkoze fard-->bahse tamarkoz==>shenakht paziri
aya in avamel, emkane paresho zigzage tasvirharo midan ya matn jasho be bast dar tule satro zamane motale'e ro mide

be ye marhale ke miresi....
az che didgah hayi ensan ro negah mikonan?
start , pareshe afkar: attention defficiency disorder
[hade aghal tasavore ma nesbat be mafhumi ke tahala bazan badesh nafas o khiale rahat mikeshidim be name "hame" eslah mishavad]
maslan try ha

moshahede shode ke bikari ke ziad beshe pareshe afkar ziad mishe
nozul va sooode bikari ye jur pareshe afkare sudmand ro mide
do se ta chize dige: kam shodane azadi, ya dard kamiat haye kolie gheire ghabel tosifian vali chejuri ghadame hesab shode mishod bardasht ke begim ina ham ba taghyirate pareshe afkar dide mishan

ADD:
hameye ina nazar mdian az low level ta high level
neuroscientist
1- unstability of attractors
2-switching of attractors
neurologists:??
pharmacologist :ke shimiayi negah mikonan . asan lazeme ma enghad be in level ha beresim tu modelemun, ya na jure digeyi towsif mikonim
be ye marhale ke miresi nabayd pol haye poshte sareto kharab klarde bashi
baba asan bi khial, man model nemisham ?

psychologist
sychiatrists
phylosophists
(potentials of the subject, moralities, rules
faghat midunam ye ruze ke zeje mizani vase hamun ruzhaye sakhto bad
naghde etefaghi ke oftad ye naghde zaeef: mane beginner age dobare negah konam baraye tashihe matnam,momkene beram tu zamin sabze o gol ezafe konam vali kamel misham?

its more than rain

ye juri fekr kardane be esme tafakkore systemi ke vase periodi is what we really needtush hameye ravabete ejza ro tashkhis midi ta raftare ye systemo towsif koni, havea this phrase:universal lyricsavvalesh nemikhastam pasho inja baz konam, didam hatta tu script neveshtan ham rahe khodesho peida karde,mohem nis betuni ru kagahz biarish bayad tu zatet bashe.jayiye ke to "hameye" ravabet tuye ye systemo behesh fek koni majburi dar nazar begiri, shekast bokhori ba natijeyi ke computer harfato behet pas mide,ya kheili ziad gofty ke zuresh nemirese, ya va dobare eslah koni...jayie ke mibini ye chizayi dide nemishan, ehtemal daran vojud dashte bashan, shayad mafhumesh ebteda ba kalamate gheire malmusi dar biat,( dava sare peida kardane hamun kalamehaye in amela hast) va taghyirateshun mohem bashemasalan har chi adama bishtar bastani mikhoran margo mir ziad mishe:(in fact bastani mogheyi mikhoran ke hava garm shode,tu hamun mogheha adama garma zade mishano etc.. )ghaziye haye jalebi esbat mishe ,age 800 bashe tedad ahuhaye tuye dasht, bahcheh dar betunan beshano dasht ghade 1000 ta ahu ghaza dashte bashe ,tedade ahuhaye tuye dasht ru 1000 ta sabet nemishe, masalan 1200..in fekro peida kardan jaleb nis? ravabete ellato malooli va correlation ha . ye diagram mikeshan ke ye tedad stock an , ye seri amel, ye seri flash ke behesh migan follow, khode flash ha mitunan tabe bashanman bishtar az hamin chand khat chizi nemidunam.bayad moteghaed beshin ke hale ye system ro ba computer ye chize ghabele tahvili dar nahayat mitune bashe .majmueyi az shekl haye ehtemalisho dar miaran vali tush mifahmim ba ziado kam shodane chiza, chi ziado kam mishe,modelo baraye residan be ye level amightar bayad chand bar avaz koni ta computer sehatesho ba moshahedatet neshun bede. ye amele poshtie ezafitar ya rabetehayi ke ghablan dar nazar nagerefty.chemidunam mishe mafahime mojarradi ro stock gereft(stock ha un box haye diagram and ke meghdar migirano tabe ke ba flashhayi(rabetehayi(tu riazi ye tabeye ehtemali) be ham vasl mishan) ye tabe 'e ehtemali, kheili dargire in ghazieye akhar ke tahvilesh be computere nabashin,age ye chizi chizi tu delehs nadashte bashe mishe vojudesho be computer neshun dad. asl un diagramie ke chizaro beham vasl mikone,bayad ta jaye momken diagram stock ha va flash hash kam beshe, shayad bayad esme amelaro avaz kard.fekr kon in ke namju mige una har kari ke begio kardan ,lyrics ha kalamehashun...poshtesh dare ye padideye dige ro ba hameye chizaye marbut behesho dar nazar migire. behem goftan shayad 40 safhe tamrine electronic neveshtan tu ye hafte tanha jayi ke be dardet mikhore hamin negahet be in jur mataleb basheshayad sa'atha satr chiz neveshtan, ya zavie o tartibe aks haye mokhtalef ro balao payin o avaz kardan ,pak kardane satr haye ye lyrics o dobare neveshtan, betune ba ye hamchin maharaty ke be dast miarim tafakkor, rahe khodesho peida bokone be bozorgtar kardane adamayi ke jazbesh mishankhodetam miduni laghal mano to nesbat be kheilia in moshkelo dashtim ke gom mikardim man kehili khoshko rasmi migam, mituni ina ro behtar begi?ye vijegimun ine ke bade goftane ye chiz shayad ehsasemun azadtar beshe vase avaz kardanesh va gah faramushesh,hamishe khoshhalie afaridan tu jadid budanesh bud,na vase eddeye boshtari por maghz budanse khat neveshteye ghablim, lahzeye avval ye tasavvori ro ijad kard, vali dar heine pardazesh, parid va bad ham dige chizi peida nashod, hichi suje sukht!vaghty midunin dari donbale chi migardinm vba midunin baraye ki darin minvisin do eshtebah mortakeb shodin , chun nabayd bedunin donbal echi migardin va nabaya dbedunin baraye ki minvisin.ye mahaarate. in this human project we should crawl among nostalgias, mikhastam hameye donya ro baghal konamm velo budam diruz should be very carefull not to change our feelings and insights in any level. im gonne start with those time, those ill period of mine... they're lost and rich.as a back ground i will inform you what we need that ive found. i was almost zero...now im 2-3 pages. the rest is the depth you can jump into and finding paths.the current paper is not a typical System dynamics research,its real. not fantasy ...so we should be very careful in the modeling.not to cross this border hajme kara kheili ziade, chizi ke baram mohemtare suje nis.at final we at least can repair our bad habbits in considering global things more systematicallyi myself is zaayide!enghad dargiresh misham ke gahi gom mishefek mikoni rahe teamworkesh chie? cherto pert nagim?vase shuru anche negah mishavad mohem nis. are "we"(ive already called it we,although i never intended going into your scripts,even if i'd be obligated to imagine the existence of anothere she ) alone to start it? remember in every session you should not lose your previous insight due to any upcoming astonishing spark. you must record it and find relatives,things that change, for example soheil ghili, dovomin gondeye iran tush, mige man falsafam vase didan tez va anti tezo matrah kardane va peida shodane santez, vase inkar ye seri tavanayihaye khasi dasht, mitunes khabasho yadesh biat, tamarkoz kone,tahlil kone, ta'bir kone.fekra o ehsasaho mogheye fek kardan gom nakone .. be nazare shoma ..ina jaleb nistan vase kule poshti jam kardane har adami?age na pa schi? vase teamworking , age ghane nashodin baz begam, engahd migam, migam migam ta.... emza:Whenever I was a child I wondered what if my name had changed into something more productive like Roscoe, born in 1991.

یادمه یه موقعی اعتماد کوانتیزه بود...
هنوزم هست؟ یا خاکستری شده؟ منفعتی؟

bebin vaghean daram adame gohi misham, yani azyat mikonam
avval ke bazi jama'atha ro ziadi daste kam gereftan darhali ke una mitunan olguye khubi bashan ,asemun dahan baz karde o ye nafar harfaye ye nafare digaro mifahme han?na khob,rastesh behem barmikhore ke ye chanta dust az ghdim baram mundan va inajoz chap chap negah kardano lable eghablim. hichi joz una. nayatam ine ke tu zehneshun ke baraye khodam bad nis o
baraye baghie bad mishe,nemikham baraye baghie bad beshe
emruz az un ruzas ke neveshtan bad akhlagham mikone
man ye chizayi neveshtam ke ru kaghaze jelome, mogheyi ke ehsase ziadi dashtam, dishab neveshtam, vali nemikham chapesh konam,baste bandi kardano postpone kardan o vaght dadan ham na be in khushunat be surat eye hamdeli, jozesh bud
bad akhlagham.
german?i mean what do you mean by german??

BBs

با یه حس ،موضوعی را شروع می کنم تا ببینم ،راهی برای تور کردن فراموش شده ها پیدا کنم ،انگار قوانین علت و معلولی مبهم می شوند،با چه شروع کردم؟به خاطر ؟پاک کردن خود صورت قضیه،نیازی نیاز به حل شدن و دراز کش میل خواب،نویز سفید،با تاخیر قضیه را به قلب روانه می کنم،اگه انرژی ای باشد،تبرئه می رسد،مهربان می شوم.
پشته ی مسئله های المپیاد خیلی سریع تر از زل ،زاده ی استراتژی می شوند،اتفاق نیفتاده!!کاغذها سریعتر ورق می خورند دو انگشت بیشتر مو را پیچ می دهند.گرامر می زنم.
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زیر قضیه رو بدونین، پشت این شکست و فرار،نه یه ظاهر شکیل و شجاع ؟

من با مفهوم بعضی کلمه ها یه حس و مشکلی دارم شبیه به ترس... کلمه هایی از قبیا تو،من،ما،فرد...سر موقع به چیزی بیشتر از درون که نگاه می کنم،مرز هایی نابود می شوند، محو می شوم ،نمی دانی داری یا نداری، ،از اینجا یا آنجا ،وظیفه ی قضاوت کردن مهم تر از چیز هایی اند که قضاوت می شوند.ظاهرا آن قدر احمقم که راه حل را امید کنترل کردن سرعت پرش افکار می دانم.حکایت پادشاهی که پاچه هایش زا بالا زده بود و خیال می کرد موج های دریا در اختیار او حرکت می کنند.

از مجموعه ی مسیر هایی که اما درهمه مادر ها شکل می گیرند یادمه که یادمه خیلی بر مغزتر و پیچیده تر می گفتند ،می فهمیدم،همه ی آدم ها به این سادگی نبودند .یادمه که یادمه.الآن وحشت از فکر کردنشه.اینجا یه ذهن پاشیده و این سر پایینی معلوم نیست به چه نا کجایی ختم می شود.خیال پردازی های هیجان آوری ندارم.
قراره هر چه هست گفته شود: می خوام ادای بقیه رو در بیارم.نواحی عملکردهای مختلف مغز رو همین روز ها کاغذیشو دیدم،یه تیکه از مساحت قشرکارش همینه.
در همین روز هاست که به خودم بیشتر اعتماد کنم کرم آهنگساز ها را موقع نسخه زدن درک می کنم.

به ما،به پدیده ی ما، به تصوری از آینده که فکر می کنم،کمتر می بازم.کمتر می مانم.تا موقعی که محو نمی شوی؟،شویم؟،شوی؟،شود؟شوم؟شویم؟شوم؟....

khodam ke negah mikonam, harki ke negah mikone,zolm shode tu haghe in mozoo,adame ketabkhuni ke falsafehaye adamaye doros hesabi zire dastesh kar mikardan,naghashiaye gondeyi ke zire dastesh mikhund vatu ye chand sal tunest tori khalaghane barname berize ke tako tanha un hame tajrobe tu zendegish kasb karde bashen, hala ye sale karesh shode sob ta shab sob ta shab ziro ru kardane webloge ye dabeshjuye mohandes.ghesmate khandedaresh alave bar inke dokhtare khalaghiate khodjushesho azdast dade yani esteghlale nazare modiriaty nadare ine ke pesare behesh ghaleb karde ke bavaresh beshe bechin, hamash hamine! donya hamine ke faghat bechini!

hala dokhtare ta mibine ke nune tuye dig tah keshide, avvalin chizi ke be nazaresh mirese ine ke bargardam be rabeteye chidan chidemani,asan bayan ham nemikone ke baba irad az khodame, khodam bad pish bordam,bad kardam,adat kardam