abcheha daran birun shoaar midan , kamran daneshju umade
barmigardam.jaat khali. ye chizayi daram vase goftan

man vazife daram. man dar barabare azamate in shahre sarsam avar ke mandam key ruzi miresad ke liaghate darke hame ash ra dashte basham. vazife daram , kare man kol ast... sarneveshto kol...
khoda delash nemikahhad man dar kare oo dehkalat konam, nemikhahad hameye adamha ra khodam beshenasam, nemikahad hameye dastanha ra gush konam
man mamoolan zoo khodemuni misham va zood zade misham,in jense sazegarie man ast..vali ba in ettefagh sazegarie man,chera hanuz khodash ra peida nakarde, in yek kare fogholade fogholade arzeshmand ast ke halahala ha arzehe khodash ra kamel peida nemikonad
pas khate yek ruz gardeshe khodam dar shahr ra be ghadam zadane sar be havaye oo peida konam
ahanghaye spaniayi...be zabane khode spaniayiha ba an shure bi gham hanuz dar zire zamin barpa mishavand..niazash mahsus ast, chizi gheir az jense versione amrikayi shode ash...

man mikahstam nursing kar konam...be khial ham nemididam ruzi kari bekhaham bokonam gheir az model kardane yek bimar va zolmhayi ke dar tasmim giri baraye ooo migirand, hanzu bazigusham ,hanuz mesle bachegihayam dust daram baraye avvalin bar ke varede khaenye gahribeyi ke madaro pedaram ba anha rudarvasi dashtand dar nim sa'at mogeyi ke kesi havasash nis mishavam pastuhayi ke khodeshan ham nadide baudand hatta ziro tuye anbarihaeyshan ra be ham berizam ta motmaen shavam chize nadideyi ra baghi nagozashte am..
agar che hanuz khodam ra peida nakardam ba gashtan...hanzuz az labelaye bazi jomalat goriz mizanam be vartehayi ke hich rabty be man nadashtand
hanuz tul mikeshad ke dar zendegi dargire tavahom nashavam va dar eine hal az ebteda ba in khial zendegi konam, kamkari mikonam, gharibegi mikonam


man be raftare oo miresam va oo be raftare man...
chra engadar bad towzih midaham?esmash dir sazegari nis...chera nemibinam bavar nemikonam?bavar nakardanist...bavar nakardanist

excuse letter :D

harfayi ke diruz zadam male chand rze psh bud khob,hanuz kare oidvar konandeyi natunesam bokonam

yani tu in ghesmat az sohbataye diruz nabayad ham ziad be gahzie omgh midadam...uam injuri yehoyi? are dige kare dorost nis vaghty dari ba kese digeyi kar mikoni

age ye meghdar hajme braine man bishtar bud(ke dare mishe) man shayad hesabshodetar amal mikardam
tanha chizi ke motmaenam ine ke tu in barnameejnun amiz kamtar mizarm beine in parakanegiayi ke ye ruz be ham vasleshun mkonam va harfaye sarotah dari ke badan mian
akhe khoda man chejuri hameye in mafahimo hamhads bezanm ham structural peida konam...yehoyi?hmasham baram jadid.doroste ke be ghowlet naghashie,vali bazam...beine in parakandegia heifo meil beshe

dar in donyayi ke hame chizesh extend mishe.. hame chiz bozorg mishe... man be kar kardan oftadam!!

harekat ruye yek sd diagram,dar rastaye marge farhangi

kheii az in ebtezalha ro mishe tu char ta block kholase kard
1:khode ideal ,tasavri ke be fard harkathayash ra dar halate hoshyari az ruye anha anjam midahad
3:sazegari, ya tasavre dustie ideal-na duste ideal - ba birun
2:angizesh ya sarkeshi ,afkare radikal,ya virangari va afarinesh,angizeshe kambood
4:ashena budan ba matn ya, shenakht pazirie matn

vase inkar bayad ye seri raftara az system ro bedunim maslan bayad bedunim taghyirate afkare radikal ruye sazegari ke sefr beshavad,taghyirate sazegari bala miravad
maslan momken ast sazegari navasani beshavad(na inke lozooman ziad beshavad)momken ast fogholade kam beshvad. ya bar ax ziad beshavad

stock haye 2 va se ro mishe ba didaneshun mese payegahe ghiasi malmoos hes kard: khode ideal,bishtare ya sazegarie tasavore khode moshtarake ideal ba radikal shodane khode ideal va chizayi mese esteghlal azadi jomhurie eslami,inke towsife donyaye piramoon be naf'e kodam yek surat migirad...

mikhaim ino towjih konim ke key in do ta stoc raftare navasani r anjam midan, va che chizi baes mishe in do ta az halate navasani khaej beshan va vazifeye navasan be dooshe stocke 1 , yani ashenayi va khode ideal biofte...fek nemikonam kesi bashe ke in etefagh ro piri ya ye shekaste bozorg nadune

mikham bebinam ke tahte che sharayeti dobare in halate rokood az bein mire va ma shahede navasanha mishim dobare?

amma blocke 4:

gablesh mikham ezafe konam ke tahte sharayeti hese shenakhtpaziri taghyir mikonad..nabze hese shenakht paziri daste chie?
ye seri functionha ya khatereha hastand ke tahte tekrare mostamar shenakhtpazirishun dobare mese avval kam mishe dar kolle proceye bazporsie un ruydad

hese shenakhtpaziri shabihe tars ast, fargh darad,darunash negah darad

bazporsi yek amele jodast ke dar teye ravande nemudare fowgh ruye shenakht paziri emal mishavad momkena ast ravand az halate yek bodi va yek mozoo'e budan kharej shavad tori ke saro kare ma digar ba yek mozoo nist,va tabi'atan nemitavan be raftare fard dar heine javab be onvane ayneye darunash tekye kard. yani boruniati ke az an moshahede mishavand,momken ast tadayie mozo'ate digar bashand ke be nakhod agahe fard miaayand, va momken ast shenakhtpaziri ra taghyir dahand,azinru gahi afrad az bazporsi sarbaz mizanand

ta zamani ke bazporsi hese shenakht paziri ra taghyir nemidahad...

amma tahlil:
taghyirate 1 ruye 2 baese taghyirate 2 va yek ruye 2 mishavad,va taghyirate yek ruye do be taghyirate 4 monjar mishavad.masalan be onvane raft\ar moshahede mikonim hengame kam shodane taghyirate 2 ruye 3 shakhs dusthaye ziadi peida mikonad dar vaghe navasani shodane sazegari baese taghyirekhode ideal ruye afkare radikal ya mishavad
taghyirate 2 ruye 3 monjar be taghyirate 4 mishavad va monjar be kam ya ziad shodane hese shenakhtpaziri gardad
hamchenin taghyirate shenakht paziri monajr be taghyirate sazegari va taghyirate arkeshi mishavad
khode sarkeshi va khode sazegari niz ruye shenakht paziri asar darand va baese kam shodane aan migardand

taghyirate 2 ruye 3 monjar be che taghyirati dar hese shenakht paziri mishavad?
baghieye towsifha tavasote computer bayad anjam shavand

anche dar vahm nagonjad, an shavam

chemidunam shayad tasvire ye shab tu ye khiabun tanha ,cheraghhaye ghermez bade yek ruze por az khali
shakhsiat hamun innocent ie ke bachegisho yeho bozorrg kardan
oscilatins trains the system... ye pattern ham dar A zaher mishavad ham dar B
oscilatin say mikonad metric ra beshenasad
age metic ra dashte bashim,har lahze, lahzehaye bi rabt, say mikonad beshenasad,vijegie fekresh tadayie azade pas har lahze momkene chizi azesh sar bezane
hatta chizayi ke ghablan nadide ro taraf generalize mikone
chizayi ke shabihe halathaye dige nabashan
har vaght az yek laye be yek laeyey dige berimaz yek fazaye systeme mokhatasaty be yeki dige miravim
va an chizi ke komak mikonad metric ast,kari nadarad ke shabih bashad ya na
connectionha... khodeshan , ya generalizationeshan
ye chizi tu in mokhtasat hast be esme darajeye azadi
darajeye azadi mese zaayesh o marge ghahramanha mimune ,
marge ghahramanha: anche dar vahm nagonjad
in darajeye azadie ke ziado kam shodanesh be taghyirate taraf monjarmishe
shartisazi hamishe mitune tanze shirini bashe, hatta sardardha mitune sharti shode bashe,

my head is all blank... i don see any necessity for anybody'd sympathy...
be kesi rabty nadare.2
3 dar rastaye nezafato tartib
chera laye dokmehaye keyborde man mibinam sadta divist ta mu gir karde?
khastam samira ro ba arash ashty bedam,man bi tasir nabudam . diruz kolli dasti be saro rush keshide bud,az inke zang zadma goftam dir miam asabani shod. bad barun umad bad zang zad gof sorry kolli sorry omid man ye chizi shode bayad bargardam charge am ham tamume
unam az arash,hichi arash migof jeddie in dafe. vali khodesh doros mishe,ye salo nime ba ham dustan

switching part 1

movajehe ba ye ghazieye chand bodi..ye chiz ke kharej az tavane addie tahammolo pardazeshe ye nafar dar ye daf'e hast...
dargirie shadid pish miat...parastar arameshe shirini ro be ghazie ezafe mikone, az dastesh milaghze.. mogheye jazb nakhaste split mishe: ghesmate paaya...ghesmate maghlub nime faramush shode...age be marhaleye darkesh beresi momkene in bala saret biat
shartisazi mishe va to az hozure bode maghlub mottaleyi ta modaty vali nemiduni chegune

alan hameye tamarkoz ruye switchinge ,switching beine pole dep va pole mania
midunamm in ye correlationhayi ba "hese vabastegi be zaat" dare(hanuz nemidunam chejuri)...
midunam ye correlationhayi ba "shartisazi,bode maghlub,asare hese vabastegi be kasi ya chizi bozorgtar a khod" dare
hargune shekast dar erzaye hese vabastegi baes mishe ke fard tamame havasesh monatef be khodesh beshe,nemitavanandba digaran ertebat bargarar konand va khod shifte mishavanad,tarife vaghebinaneye khodshiftegi hamine


banabarin:
switching-->shartisazi,shekast dar erzaye hese vabastegi,pirozie eshgh-->imeni kam mishavad-
->asare raftari mesle afsordegi padid miayad
niaz be gostareshe khod


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vabastegi be zaat ke ziad beshe-->shakhs az halate fel pazir fara miravad-->to'am ba afaridan ya viran kardan(este'la)-->i(ye boxe hanuz na maloom)-->shartisazi-->imeni-->dobare vabastegi be zaaat momkene ziad beshe
vojude khatare alayeghe zenaa gune(tanha vatan parasty) dar barabare rishe dashtan

piruzi dar shartisazi ba inchiz ha moyassar mishe:
tavajjoh
ehsase masuliat
ehteram
shenakht
(i really should change the words)
eshghe barvar:
alagehmandie amigh be alaghemandi be halo vaz va asan kardane roshd va kamaleshan
ehsase masuliat dar pasokhguyi be niazhaye aanhast
mehrvarzi yani mohtaram shomordan va paziroftane fardiate aanha
-->bayad dorost va kamel anha ra shenakht

man kahr shodam rasman inja chiz neveshtam

between ta'adole hayaty va ta'adoel ideal

chizi be esme ta'adole ideal (hameye unchizi ke rajebe mizane hafezeye upload shode va dastrasi eb una )vojud dare
va ta'adole hayaty
ta'adole hayaty ba ye chizayi cntrl mishe mese ghand,dopamine (peivande gahvieye beine neuronha ,masalan ziadish monjar be takhayol o schizofereni o ina mishe) lithium(ehsashaye motazad vevojud mian vali na be surate paydar, zaheran taraf shadid dep mizane ya shadid mania mishe/ chizaye dige ham budan mese headaches, giji,ya energye e fa'al sazie payin(hamun dopamine)
energy fa'alsazie payin tasirash ruye raftarahaye ejtemayi
tasirash ruye raftaraye daruni mese khial-->monjar mishe be ta'adoel ideal
ya khial masalan age mizane tahdid payin biat raftare sarkhoshi az taraf sar mizane va taraf mania mishe

age taadole hayaty high bezshe taadol ideal ham high beshe....ehsase dustdashtani
age hayaty low beshe ideal high beshe....investigations starts for the self
age hayaty high beshe ideal low beshe....chemidunam, man ommit karde budam ghablana ino!
age hayaty low beshe ideal ham low beshe ...sardardha va tasmimate nakhoshayand shuru mishan
vazeh ast ke ta'adole hayaty va ideal bayad mahiate chand vajhi dashte bashand, hayaty haro goftam be chia barmigarde

ma azyat kone baghie budim, in hame durugh mitunestim begim,khodemuno be mush mordegi bezanim ,yani mogheyi ke interactiono mikhaym model konim, in raftara chizayian ke natijeye ye seri etefaghayian ke mioftan
ye moshahede: vojude mazmunhaye expressionism e abstract(ke ye chizie ke be chizaye malmus tari refer dade mishe -mese tak khatere ) ye rabtayi be durugh nagoftano ria be kharj nadadan dasht
tu bimarayi ke khodeshun etegahd daran baghie bayad harfashuno ghabul nakonan ,ye tasirayi ruye ravande fek kardaneshun be in ye morede E.A dare

fast reading, har chi be zehnet miat mese kurhayi ke cheshmashun bastast dastashuno donbale jaye chiza takun midan

peida kardane ye level ehsase mohkamke negah midari gusheye zehnetvali alan taghyir nemikone,farghesh ba ekhtesas nadadanine ke age midunesty chi bud mirafty donbalesh..ghaede nayar chikar mituni bokoni, boro balatar, bebin chi kar MItuni bokoniavaz shodane systeme fekri va talash baraye tose'eye jadide.ghabli ye zaat hazf mishod
inja ye chizi lazeme unam erja be gzoashtast.
bebin mituni in sardargomi ro towsif koni...?modam az ye attractor be ye attractore dige chang mizanebia payinenghadr kalame ha ro riz kon , ke beshe chizaye digeye system ro ham besh ebahash towsif kard,na inke enghadr be hame chiz vabaste beshe va na enghad ke taghyiresh be khatere asare hameye chizaye dige gom besheba in mituni shuru koni?ye hesi darim ke vijegish yekam jelotar miat... az ye attractor dast miavizim .. tuye sharayete ke "ta'adole ideal"(nazaret rajebe in vaje va riz kardanesh chie?) kheili payineye chizi in vasat kam mishe ye khala, va tuye tamassok jostan ye chize dige bala mire.. vijegie in sardargomi ine ke un bala raftehe dobare payin miat.ru in asl raftam ke javabe ino zud azet mikham

in faghat ye tamrine, ye dast garmi , vas dorost khundan o javab dadan
nabayad ruye chizayi ke dorost nemishnasam esm bezaram, ghablan ha migoftam low latent
inhibition
alan tu barrasie in mored saro kare ma ba yeneveshtast farzan ke in ettefagha ya barash oftade ya mitunest biofte
chand sa'at bad , dobare khuundanesh be ye neveshteye adi tabdil mishe(baba nagoftam injurie male to)ina har kodom nime harfayiayn ke bayad did be koja miresan
1: tasavore ahmaghane budan ro midahad chun entezare didane chizi bishtar dar hamchun zaman va makani bud
ma un avakehr miresim be chi
hadafe entekhabie ma baraye shurue neveshteye to: bar rasie proceye low latent inhibition va shekaste shodane telesmeshe chizhayi ke ba un talash tasvirhaye ma dide shod,bad male shod
rewshte, reshte reshte:
raftar fard pas az moshahedeye yek asar, (sefate asar? sefate negah?)
dar peye...
dar feshar
towsife amadegi:1 -resist budan, 2tahdid,3-ezterab,4- ekhtesase zamani
etc, antithese ha
towsif ya parametr haye hayatie lazemtari?,
che taghyiri dar fard dide mishe ta mogheye male didan
in ashoftegi haro mishe hich juri jahat dad?
approache male didan khodesh anti thesesho nagoftim
nahveye tamarkoze fard-->bahse tamarkoz==>shenakht paziri
aya in avamel, emkane paresho zigzage tasvirharo midan ya matn jasho be bast dar tule satro zamane motale'e ro mide

be ye marhale ke miresi....
az che didgah hayi ensan ro negah mikonan?
start , pareshe afkar: attention defficiency disorder
[hade aghal tasavore ma nesbat be mafhumi ke tahala bazan badesh nafas o khiale rahat mikeshidim be name "hame" eslah mishavad]
maslan try ha

moshahede shode ke bikari ke ziad beshe pareshe afkar ziad mishe
nozul va sooode bikari ye jur pareshe afkare sudmand ro mide
do se ta chize dige: kam shodane azadi, ya dard kamiat haye kolie gheire ghabel tosifian vali chejuri ghadame hesab shode mishod bardasht ke begim ina ham ba taghyirate pareshe afkar dide mishan

ADD:
hameye ina nazar mdian az low level ta high level
neuroscientist
1- unstability of attractors
2-switching of attractors
neurologists:??
pharmacologist :ke shimiayi negah mikonan . asan lazeme ma enghad be in level ha beresim tu modelemun, ya na jure digeyi towsif mikonim
be ye marhale ke miresi nabayd pol haye poshte sareto kharab klarde bashi
baba asan bi khial, man model nemisham ?

psychologist
sychiatrists
phylosophists
(potentials of the subject, moralities, rules
faghat midunam ye ruze ke zeje mizani vase hamun ruzhaye sakhto bad
naghde etefaghi ke oftad ye naghde zaeef: mane beginner age dobare negah konam baraye tashihe matnam,momkene beram tu zamin sabze o gol ezafe konam vali kamel misham?

its more than rain

ye juri fekr kardane be esme tafakkore systemi ke vase periodi is what we really needtush hameye ravabete ejza ro tashkhis midi ta raftare ye systemo towsif koni, havea this phrase:universal lyricsavvalesh nemikhastam pasho inja baz konam, didam hatta tu script neveshtan ham rahe khodesho peida karde,mohem nis betuni ru kagahz biarish bayad tu zatet bashe.jayiye ke to "hameye" ravabet tuye ye systemo behesh fek koni majburi dar nazar begiri, shekast bokhori ba natijeyi ke computer harfato behet pas mide,ya kheili ziad gofty ke zuresh nemirese, ya va dobare eslah koni...jayie ke mibini ye chizayi dide nemishan, ehtemal daran vojud dashte bashan, shayad mafhumesh ebteda ba kalamate gheire malmusi dar biat,( dava sare peida kardane hamun kalamehaye in amela hast) va taghyirateshun mohem bashemasalan har chi adama bishtar bastani mikhoran margo mir ziad mishe:(in fact bastani mogheyi mikhoran ke hava garm shode,tu hamun mogheha adama garma zade mishano etc.. )ghaziye haye jalebi esbat mishe ,age 800 bashe tedad ahuhaye tuye dasht, bahcheh dar betunan beshano dasht ghade 1000 ta ahu ghaza dashte bashe ,tedade ahuhaye tuye dasht ru 1000 ta sabet nemishe, masalan 1200..in fekro peida kardan jaleb nis? ravabete ellato malooli va correlation ha . ye diagram mikeshan ke ye tedad stock an , ye seri amel, ye seri flash ke behesh migan follow, khode flash ha mitunan tabe bashanman bishtar az hamin chand khat chizi nemidunam.bayad moteghaed beshin ke hale ye system ro ba computer ye chize ghabele tahvili dar nahayat mitune bashe .majmueyi az shekl haye ehtemalisho dar miaran vali tush mifahmim ba ziado kam shodane chiza, chi ziado kam mishe,modelo baraye residan be ye level amightar bayad chand bar avaz koni ta computer sehatesho ba moshahedatet neshun bede. ye amele poshtie ezafitar ya rabetehayi ke ghablan dar nazar nagerefty.chemidunam mishe mafahime mojarradi ro stock gereft(stock ha un box haye diagram and ke meghdar migirano tabe ke ba flashhayi(rabetehayi(tu riazi ye tabeye ehtemali) be ham vasl mishan) ye tabe 'e ehtemali, kheili dargire in ghazieye akhar ke tahvilesh be computere nabashin,age ye chizi chizi tu delehs nadashte bashe mishe vojudesho be computer neshun dad. asl un diagramie ke chizaro beham vasl mikone,bayad ta jaye momken diagram stock ha va flash hash kam beshe, shayad bayad esme amelaro avaz kard.fekr kon in ke namju mige una har kari ke begio kardan ,lyrics ha kalamehashun...poshtesh dare ye padideye dige ro ba hameye chizaye marbut behesho dar nazar migire. behem goftan shayad 40 safhe tamrine electronic neveshtan tu ye hafte tanha jayi ke be dardet mikhore hamin negahet be in jur mataleb basheshayad sa'atha satr chiz neveshtan, ya zavie o tartibe aks haye mokhtalef ro balao payin o avaz kardan ,pak kardane satr haye ye lyrics o dobare neveshtan, betune ba ye hamchin maharaty ke be dast miarim tafakkor, rahe khodesho peida bokone be bozorgtar kardane adamayi ke jazbesh mishankhodetam miduni laghal mano to nesbat be kheilia in moshkelo dashtim ke gom mikardim man kehili khoshko rasmi migam, mituni ina ro behtar begi?ye vijegimun ine ke bade goftane ye chiz shayad ehsasemun azadtar beshe vase avaz kardanesh va gah faramushesh,hamishe khoshhalie afaridan tu jadid budanesh bud,na vase eddeye boshtari por maghz budanse khat neveshteye ghablim, lahzeye avval ye tasavvori ro ijad kard, vali dar heine pardazesh, parid va bad ham dige chizi peida nashod, hichi suje sukht!vaghty midunin dari donbale chi migardinm vba midunin baraye ki darin minvisin do eshtebah mortakeb shodin , chun nabayd bedunin donbal echi migardin va nabaya dbedunin baraye ki minvisin.ye mahaarate. in this human project we should crawl among nostalgias, mikhastam hameye donya ro baghal konamm velo budam diruz should be very carefull not to change our feelings and insights in any level. im gonne start with those time, those ill period of mine... they're lost and rich.as a back ground i will inform you what we need that ive found. i was almost zero...now im 2-3 pages. the rest is the depth you can jump into and finding paths.the current paper is not a typical System dynamics research,its real. not fantasy ...so we should be very careful in the modeling.not to cross this border hajme kara kheili ziade, chizi ke baram mohemtare suje nis.at final we at least can repair our bad habbits in considering global things more systematicallyi myself is zaayide!enghad dargiresh misham ke gahi gom mishefek mikoni rahe teamworkesh chie? cherto pert nagim?vase shuru anche negah mishavad mohem nis. are "we"(ive already called it we,although i never intended going into your scripts,even if i'd be obligated to imagine the existence of anothere she ) alone to start it? remember in every session you should not lose your previous insight due to any upcoming astonishing spark. you must record it and find relatives,things that change, for example soheil ghili, dovomin gondeye iran tush, mige man falsafam vase didan tez va anti tezo matrah kardane va peida shodane santez, vase inkar ye seri tavanayihaye khasi dasht, mitunes khabasho yadesh biat, tamarkoz kone,tahlil kone, ta'bir kone.fekra o ehsasaho mogheye fek kardan gom nakone .. be nazare shoma ..ina jaleb nistan vase kule poshti jam kardane har adami?age na pa schi? vase teamworking , age ghane nashodin baz begam, engahd migam, migam migam ta.... emza:Whenever I was a child I wondered what if my name had changed into something more productive like Roscoe, born in 1991.